Awakening in English

Where I stand today


It is amazing how deeply and fast this awakening process is rooting within myself. Up until a few months ago, I was living based on a set of beliefs that I had been gathering since my childhood, which had evolved and changed throughout the years. However, describing what I did  NOT believe in was a lot easier than trying to venture an explanation of what I truly believed in. In fact, I used to say: "This is what I believe now, this is what seems logical and true for my soul right now. The moment something makes more sense to me, I will change again. I live by what seems true to my heart." 


It was even before graduating from catholic high school that I began to question the truth behind catholicism. The idea of a male god, the female figure so far below the male figures, the ideas of suffering, pain, and resignation did not make one bit of sense to me. The problem was that it seemed that I was the only one among my friends and family who felt the same way. I was regarded by my brother as an heretic, and he feared for my soul (I still have a dear friend who fears for my soul...). So my search was very lonesome and I felt I was the only one in the whole world who felt like this (Ah! we all feel tiny at some point in our teenage years, don't we?). Fortunately I started a course on "mind control" which introduced some revolutionary ideas for me such as having a possitive attitude, changing thoughts through affirmations, and the joy of living. It even opened up a huge door to all the places and tools I could create in my mind, places which brought great comfort, color and light. With the readings and experiences that came afterwards, the idea of reincarnation became more and more logical, so I "said" I believed in reincarnation, although there was always a shadow of doubt, always a "what if...?" I looked for answers in countless ways, let's see how many I can remember: experiential workshops, numerology, wiccanism (this one was truly enlightening!!), energy management workshops (here I learned about the chakras), visualization, astrology, witchcraft, reiki, aromatherapy, reflexology, mithology, meditation, tarot, runes, shamanic sessions. Each of them added a piece to the puzzle, but they did not seem belong to the same pattern.


At last, a few months ago all the pieces started falling into place. So much so, that now I truly do believe in the things I say I believe in, there's no doubt about it in all my being. I'm aware that I will be adding up concepts and building on existing ones, but I know that certain things which I hold to be true today will always be true to me: there's no going back, and it isn't something I can control (nor would I want to!). 


So, what are some of those truths I am absolutely convinced of?
* God lies in me; therefore, if I dare venture and listen, all the answers are within myself. No need for gurus, workshops, or foretelling of any kind.
* We are all a part of god incarnated with the sole purpose of learning through experience, and NOT experiencing based on knowledge. No punishment of any kind, just souls experiencing...
* Although we nurture from one another, the unique mix that works for me is good for no one else. All of our mixes are unique.
* We are living the end of a cycle and we have the opportunity of bringing heaven down to Earth. That is the work of lightworkers, and I am definitely one of them.
* As experiencing incarnated parts of god, no one knows for sure how the end of the cycle will develop: we are creating it as we go!
* Our mission is to heal ourselves, to find our own and unique path to bring our cycle to a successful end. The others will benefit of our energy, but helping others is not our job, it is only the consequence of our job.


So, I've arrived to a place where I no longer feel alone and isolated, I no longer feel I don't fit in (I realize many people do not see eye to eye with me, but that's perfect as it is). I'm aware that I still have a long way to go, but I'm enjoying the process, and all those around me -those who share my vision as well as those who don't - make it much more meaningful and enjoyable. So, THANK YOU!


See you soon!