Awakening in English

It is imperative I start acting according to the way I want things to be in my life. One of the main areas that need atention is work. I repeat the affirmation: "I work in projects I fully enjoy, with and for people I trully like, and they pay me great money for it!" However, in many cases, fear moves me to accept projects that I dislike, for people who don't value my work and time, and for very little money. If the law of attraction is true, then this is the surest way to continue in the situation of lack I've been immersed for a very long time.


So, I've decided to set a minimum rate and stick to it: I'll accept nothing that doesn't meet that amount. I've been doing that for some time now, and it's getting easier.
Now, the hardest challenge so far took place today. Last year I was offered to translate a luxury magazine into English, and the project fell through before it even began. In the following months, I did a couple of translations for the same company, and getting paid proved to be exhausting. Last week they called me again with the old project of the luxury magazine, and we scheduled an appointment to get organized. At first I was very happy, I even did a little success dance in the kitchen. The situation reminded me of a scene in the movie Baby Boom with Diane Keaton, in which she's offered a generous comeback to the company that fired her when she became a mom.
But after the initial thrill, I had the weekend to think it over. I began to figure out a rate that would make me happy, but at the same time I couldn't help remembering how hard it had been for me to get paid in the last opportunity. It also started dawning on me that I had no interest whatsoever in translating this luxury magazine into English, which was to be a very hard and time-consuming task, and a topic that would add absolutely nothing to my soul. However, truth be old, at this moment, rejecting work seems to be the greatest sin.


But I anticipated the emotions I would get once I had to start working on the project, and they were very upsetting. So, in spite of all my fear, I decided to cancel the meeting and tell them that I was no longer interested in participating in the project. It took a lot of guts to gather up the courage to do it, but afterward, I felt very relaxed and happy with myself. Now it's the time to relax, surrender and trust that this is the kind of attitude I need to get what I want. After all, if I take the aforementinoned movie as a parameter, Diane rejects the proposal and makes a fortune out of her own project.